I try to keep things around here light because blogging should be fun, right? But I can't imagine that the things I freak out about are strictly limited to me. So here goes....
Since I came back from Florida I've had some serious, "What have we done?" moments (don't freak out, we're not planning on moving). When we left we'd been married less than a year, we'd only been out of college for a little over a year, we only had Amanda, who was well past the "little person that needs constant care" stage, I wasn't close to Trav's parents and neither was Amanda, Chloe and Halle didn't exist, and we were definitely in the "world is our oyster" frame of mind. Life was still an adventure waiting and the thought of leaving family, while we were sad, wasn't something that was going to stop us from doing what God told us to do (not that it would now).
I never grew up near my grandparents or aunts and uncles. My grandparents lived 10 and 24 hours away and we saw them once a year. I never talked to them on the phone and aside from the occasional present I had no interaction with them and therefore very little relationship. I don't know why it was that way. But Travis' family is completely opposite. They get together, they call each other, they send cards, their feelings get hurt if you don't do all of the above and it was very difficult for me to understand when we got married. My family lived very isolated with few, if any, real friends. People came and went out of our lives and it really didn't seem to matter to my parents. But I have changed a lot since we've gotten married. The thought of living an isolated life like I did before seems crazy- although my circle of friends hasn't grown much in the last several years. Anyway, my "what have we done" moment came after spending time with Travis' parents and seeing the amazing bond that Chloe has with her Grandma. Really, those to are like twins separated at birth by quite a few years. They both love to bake, scrapbook, pink, butterflies, and their family. I just hate it that they have to be apart. And little Halle is Grandpa's girl! She 'd yell "Gwandpa!" every time they were separated for a bit and came back together. Of course, I don't want to minimize the fact that my parents are close by and the girls have a relationship with each of them as well- only it's the opposite. Halle is Nanni's girl and Chloe loves nothing better than to go golfing with Poppi. I think it's because of the sand traps. Then there are Trav's brothers who are so close...I've had a tough time with this recently if you can't tell. It's not like I want to live in Florida, I feel more at home here than I ever have anywhere else. I like the quality of life here. There are things I miss about Florida- a lot- but I love living here. I don't have an answer for any of this except that we live here and our life is here and theirs is there and occasionally our lives intersect so we can visit and catch up. It just feels like were missing so much....Oh, and Shane and Angie are expecting again! I do have a hair brained scheme to get to move here but my schemes rarely work :) Actually, I think we've tried to get every one of our family members here, to no avail.
But you ladies that read my blog faithfully have to know what I'm talking about. It can't be just me, can it?